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One Foot Out Okay, this is probably the first absolutely spontaneous post on my blog yet. Not that I stood in front of a mirror and rehearsed what I was going to write on the others but this one just came into my mind due to a recent conversation with a few people I know. Have you ever made a decision about something in your life whether it be a big or small decision and when you made the decision you were 100% on board. Then when you finally decided to make the leap to put the decision into practice you found yourself keeping 1 foot back in the old and only going one foot into the new? I think at some point we all have but I really started thinking about this while working and I can’t seem to come up with an answer as to why we do this sometimes. Can it be that we are never really sure what we fully want? Or maybe we are wired to not want to let go of things that we experience and we want to just hold on to a piece of everything.

If you are unsure of what I mean I will give you an example, think about when you were a teenager and in high school, You have lots of options as to what you can do with yourself after high school but we all eventually had to choose. I know some of us chose and off we went but it’s more likely that you chose what you wanted to do and started doing it while part of you still said, ” Maybe I want to go try this.” Now this is obviously not a bad thing, I personally am the type of person that likes to try multiple things just to see if I can do it and do it well, were the issue comes in for me is when I decide to “try” something but I do not give it my all because I want to continue to “try” this other thing. It has taken me a long to realize that I will receive much better results if I am either All In or All Out.

Taking the All In Or All out approach has multiple pros and cons depending on what you are applying it to. For instance, the things that I know I like to try or things such as spray paint art, building things and other hands on activities that when going all in can become very expensive but rewarding at the same time. The other more serious side of the All In All Out mentality is when you are applying to relationships or religion and things that affect others. I’m sure a lot of you readers are married or have children, let me ask you; would your spouse or kids appreciate you not being All In? Ha, I think not… Take a look at religion for one second, if you are devoting yourself to a religion does it do you any good to be partially in? I’m not sure about you but I don’t think it does. Its like if I said,”I’m going to take anger management classes on Monday, Wednesday and Friday and Cage Fight on Saturdays.” Unfortunately I do not think I would succeed at either unless I took the all in mentality to one or the other.

I think I may try to consciously make the decision to be either All In Or All Out when it comes to making decisions and what kind of change this can make. Once again, you may not feel the same about this topic as I do and that is why I will always finish my posts encouraging you to click on the comment section and make your mark here and “Turn Your Thoughts Inside Out.”

Raymond

Forgiveness in your hands

Why do I need to forgive him? I am not going to forgive her, she doesn’t deserve it. Why forgive someone like that, do you know what they did to me? What is forgiving that idiot going to do other than let him think it was okay? He is gone now, so what difference does forgiving him make?

This is a topic that can be ran with and taken in many directions, but my focus of forgiveness is not to show you what forgiving someone can do for them, but instead what it does for you. We have all had things in our life happen were we held grudges or just held anger inside due to a situation that he had been put through. Take just a few minutes and think back to your situation in particular… Do you remember the anger now, do you remember the nights you could not fall asleep because you could not calm your mind and stop thinking about the feeling of being wronged  or betrayed? You may even be sitting in the chair in front the computer screen right now reading this and all the feelings are rushing back into your mind. That feeling of not having control of those emotions is what can and will destroy any hope of happiness within ourselves.

I myself have struggled with this exact issue, carrying around anger and hatred due to feeling like I had been done wrong and in some cases telling myself I had let go of the grudge and then later just finding out that I had not and it was still bothering me. When I stop and think about it and truly be honest with myself, I was the only one it was hurting to carry that anger around it sure was not the other individual and in most cases that other person may know that they did wrong but they had moved on while I had not. Can you relate to that? If your answer is no, rethink that because you may not be doing yourself justice.

Before you assume I writing this to just say, ” Oh, forgive everyone and life will be peachy.” Put yourself on the other side, think about if you have ever done something or said something to someone who may have hurt them and it has never been discussed or worked through. Now, think about if one day that person that you hurt sent you a random email or showed up at your door or called you and said,” Hey, I do not agree with the things that have been done but I just wanted you to know that I forgive you.” This would not be like the movies where the forgiven all of a sudden have gold beams of light pouring out of every crevis and they begin floating because they have been set free. Most of the time it would have the opposite effect, It’s like the big kid on the playground stole your milk money and instead of fighting him or treating him how he treated you, you simply say,” Enjoy your Milk.” That big kid may think you are nuts but that one-act of pure selflessness may be what it takes to show that person what real freedom is.

Forgiving is not easy, this is something that many of us wrestle with for a very long time before ever being able to actually forgive anyone, but that feeling you will enjoy after you do forgive is indescribable. The freedom of not being a prisoner of your own hatred and anger and knowing that you set yourself free from the hypothetical bars that “you” are locked behind.

As I mentioned before, this is something that I have struggled with and have lately had this topic on my mind and pulling strongly at me. The answer to all of the opening questions for me is simple ” You are not forgiving them to set them free, you are forgiving them to set yourself free.” These are only my thoughts on forgiveness and you may agree or you may agree to disagree and either way I do not think that there is a wrong answer when it comes to this topic but I do think you should take the time to put some thought to it and then turn your thoughts inside out.

Raymond

Sundays are pretty planned out around our house these days, we wake up get dressed, go to church, grab lunch then go home and hang out as a family and prepare for the week at hand. This Sunday was no different except for the drive to church that my 2-year-old and I had. Becky had gone to the church early since she volunteers her time in the preschool so I was with my daughter until 11:00 when we would arrive at the church. We watched some cartoons and then got ready for our day, the normal things while getting ready with her are to turn on music and dance around with her while she gets dressed and then we take off.

The drive is only about 10 minutes at most since Verve is just one exit down the highway from us. Normally we fly up the 15 get off at Blue Diamond and the light is always green and off we go. Well this time it was red, we came to a stop as the first car in the line and this homeless man walked around the corner with his sign that said, ” Hungry, Please Help” with little crosses drawn on the bottom. I normally see these guys and for a split second I go hmmm I could help but…… This time it was a little different; I had packed some snacks and juice for Jade and I had a bottle of Fuit2o for me in the cup holder that I had no opened. I rolled down my window and asked the guy, ” Are you thirsty?” The guy could not have replied with more excitement in his voice, I received a quick, ” Yessir, thank you so much god bless you” and started walking towards the other cars. This mans reaction was not what hit me, It was my daughter that got me. The light turned green and I started to pull off and my 2-year-old daughter said, ” Daddy, Give him my snacks.” I am not going to play tough guy, a few tears ran down my face when she said that.

We have tried very hard to instill giving in our daughters heart and when all she saw was me give this man my water and pull away she told me to give away “HER SNACKS.” As proud of her as I was, her saying that to me was almost like someone telling me, hey dumb dumb all you gave the guy was a water… This is what made me begin to think about this situation in further depth. My daughter is 2 and still does not have the concept of value or ownership so in turn she does not have the thought of, ” What about me?”  This is how I personally feel I should be, I should be able to give without that what about me feeling. I went the rest of my Sunday with that on my mind. I have always been a giving person as far as helping out those in need but to put it Simply, my daughter taught me a lesson about giving in 2 minutes that I have really neglected to fully embrace in 26 years.

All I can do is whole heartedly try to change my ways and give like a child… Lately the topic of giving has been presenting itself to me and I know that things like that do not happen for no reason, It is a good and bad thing is that it took my 2-year-old to show me the importance of it. Thank you Jade for helping daddy turn his thoughts inside out.

Raymond

Case of the MondaysWhen you hear that loud screeching of your alarm on Monday, unless you are Iron Man, I highly doubt you come shooting out of your bed with a smile on your face and ready to work. This morning I was thinking just what Mondays normally consist of for me and I started wondering if I am the only one that feels this way about Mondays. You just spent the last two days either hanging out and relaxing or taking care of the loose ends that we all neglect to take care of during the week, no matter who you are when Sunday afternoon about 4pm rolls around you start to think about that dreaded day we all call “MONDAY”.

Whats so different about this day, it’s just like any other right? Wrong, it is not like any other day at all, Maybe it is just me but Monday is always the most trying day of the week for many reasons. I personally am an IT Manager for a small company and no matter how smooth the last week was and no matter how high of a note we ended the week on I can basically go into my Monday knowing that my morning coffee comes with a side of To Do’s a mile long. The copier will be broken, the main inventory computer will be down the server will crash and user errors will be at an all time high. I may as well have the ” Somebody Has A Case Of The Mondays” guy sitting on my desk waiting for me.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t let Monday get me down or slow down my week. Monday has become the most comical day of the week for me. I now have my own list of things to expect on Monday and I will share it with you right now. My Monday’s now consist of the following: I will sleep through my alarm, My breakfast will be either horrible or non existent, I will get cut off by that pesky red truck getting on the freeway and I will get absolutely nothing I planned to get done at work done due to the meltdowns at everyone elses desks.

Like I have mentioned before, I try to take the thoughts I have and spin them into a positive light no matter what the case. I have to say that this has not always been an easy one for me to do that with but to make my Mondays not seem so Mondayish I take some time to help out someone other than myself. I think the Mondays come partially from putting it in our own minds that it is Monday and it’s going to be a long week. I don’t know about you but I have more Mondays than not that I open my eyes, hit my alarm, and say out loud. ” ohhhh I hate Mondays.” Let me ask you this, would your Monday be just a little bit better if someone brought you a coffee or told you that you are doing a good job or simply told you how good it is to see you today? These small acts of kindness speak volumes and I think are the best medicine for someone with the Mondays.

Take your Monday and make the best of it, and instead of making it “YOUR” Monday, Lets try to make it “OUR” Monday. If we all did one nice thing for just one person every Monday it would be a short period of time before people start waking up looking forward to starting the week because doing something for someone else has a stronger effect on you than you will ever be able to imagine. If you don’t believe me try it. By the way, It is nice to see you today…. Go turn your thoughts inside out and make someones Monday just a little bit better.

Raymond

At what point does it become obvious that you have “Too Much Stuff”. This is definitely open for interpretation, maybe you have too much clutter, or maybe you are some crazy couponer and you have your own personal Albertsons in your basement. Or maybe you have too much money….. Yes I said money but we will get to that in a minute. Lately I have noticed that there are a ton of people who have too much of something and they do not see it at all, please understand that I am not excluding myself in this thought. I know I have too much of some things and that is never a good thing to have a huge overabundance of “stuff” that you and your family can not use on your own when someone else out there may never have the chance to experience whatever that item is.

Lets dig a little deeper into this and see whose feathers we can ruffle, lately Becky has been watching this show called extreme couponing and these people are in my own opinion ” INSANE” not because they like to save money but because of the overwhelming urge they all seem to have to want to stock up on items that they will never in their entire lives use. One of the guys on there had something like 20,000 bottles of body wash in his basement/hoarding room. Think about that for one second… we have 365 days in a year so he can use a new bottle of body wash everyday for the next 54 years. Hmmm Seems to me like you have too much. Why do I care that Joe Blow has a million hygiene products and 5,000 bottles of mustard and 2600 boxes of cereal. Well because I drive by people on the way to work daily that have no soap, have not eaten in 2 days and will probably never have more that a quarter box of cereal at a time, I know what some of you are saying, ” That doesn’t matter, Joe Blow earned those things and the other person did not.” I guess in a sense you are correct but why can’ the guy that just spent ¢36 on $1,000 worth of groceries keep what he needs and give the rest to a shelter or something, I would think that would make saving the $964 worth the fact that you then fed 500 people on ¢.36. In this case I think this is a case of having Too Much Stuff.

In my mind I think there are tons of examples of people having too much stuff, money being one of them. I have met a lot of people especially living in Vegas that have too much money, go ahead…. say it… ” Raymond, you can never have too much money” My answer to that is Yes you can, I think money is a blinder and deceiver to be honest with all of you reading this. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that money is not important to live because it is but too much of it is bad. The blinder aspect of money is obvious, money can cause people to put on a hypothetical blinder and not care who they run over on the way to the pay-day, I guess in the business world this is somewhat expected but friends and family get this treatment by their own. As far as money being a deceiver I think that is also something obvious you can see everyday on national television. Watch Tv for one hour tonight and pay attention to the adds and shows, in that one hour span you will have seen at least 4 adds glamorizing what money can do for you and how much happier you will be once you reach that pinnacle of being able to spend all you want when you want. From the people who I have had a chance to meet that are in this situation, I can tell you they are nothing like the commercials, they actually in most cases are some of the most miserable people I know. Money can’t buy love and happiness regardless of what society tells us. Again, I think this is a case of Having Too Much Stuff.

I try my hardest to think about things in relation to myself and how I can either improve myself through the thoughts or help others to improve something within themselves by sharing things that some people may not be able to share without upsetting someone. I have no hang up when it comes to upsetting anyone with any of this. By reading this if you in any way get upset maybe it is time to take a look at yourself and figure out what it is that you have too much of and why you are so upset about coming to the realization of it.  Once more, these are just my thoughts on the topic of having too much stuff, and as I mentioned in the beginning “Too Much Stuff” is open for interpretation and you may not feel the same about any of the things I wrote about and if that is the case, feel free to share your comments about it here. Turn Your Thoughts Inside out!

Raymond

I got into work and went through my daily routine, Check the online sales, pack the outgoing packages, update the buy and sale spreadsheet and then make my coffee and wait for the door bell to ring. The first few customers that came in happened to be regulars and they knew what to do, Go over to the booth and sell your stuff or walk around and look at all the inventory. I then watched two ladies get out of a car in the parking lot and leisurely stroll to the door so I let them in and asked them if they needed any assistance. Keep in mind I did this from a distance and when I walked closer I started to pick up this familiar aroma and I obviously tried to ignore it and help the customers but it was like I was battling with my mind to stay on track and not let my mind just run through the filing cabinet of smells that I have stored in my mind. To say the least, I lost. That smell registered and all of a sudden BAM “Aunt Angie”, this lady was wearing something that my Aunt wears… I know this may come off as an odd thing to write about but because of this I started thinking about how crazy it really is that our minds will go through thousands of stored memories and pick out one specific moment in time because of one simple aroma. Do you really think my mind would just go, ” Yep that smell reminds me of my aunt” and then move on… NOPE

I went back to my desk and continued to work and then my mind began to wander, What other smells do I know cause this same effect on me. One of them is actually quite frequent considering I live in a city where people smoke everywhere you turn, the smell of Marlboro Reds bring up the distinct smell of driving down the hill to work with my Dad. He owned a masonry business and at some point or another all of us boys worked with him. Working with dad was always fine and dandy but the part we all secretly dreaded was driving around town with him at 4AM to check on Jobs. When I get a whiff of those particular cigarettes It is almost like I am sitting in the front seat of that silver dodge again; There is a slight smell of coffee and the windows are up and sealed tight with the heater on full blast. It would be no more than 5 minutes and I could hear the sound of that pack smacking up against his hand to pack the tobacco down and then the flick of the lighter. This is when you would attempt to plan out an escape in your mind. Some of the scenarios I would play out in my mind went like this…  I know there is a gas station about 2 miles up the road before we hit the highway, maybe I can tell him I have to use the bathroom and when I get out I will leave the door open so the Cheech and Chong plume of smoke can escape… The list goes on and on. All of this memory overload complements of the Marlboro man sitting at a slot machine.

This is amazing to me that both large and small events in your life can snap right back to you by one simple scent. Another for instance that happened a few months back was when Becky and I went to go look around at the local thrift store just to see what kind of garbage they have. As soon as that door opened and the breeze was drawn out the door WHAM… Every Memory I had of my Uncle flooded my mind… It was like a slide show in my mind, I could see myself walking up the stairs to his apartment on Judah street and knocking on the door just to hear him yell, “Heyyyyy Hold on Damnit, I need to put my pants on.” I can’t help but laugh just thinking about it right now. That one smell drew up many many memories from being at the apartment to riding bikes around town to riding the city transit bus with him.

The shocking thing to me is just how vivid a memory can be when plucked out of your memory banks by smell. I know I am not the only one that associates smells with some of the most important memories in your life. Why don’t you take a minute and think about what smells affect you. The other thing is that you cannot control the memories that are brought to the surface but most of the time it is well worth the ride. So remember, next time this happens to you, just embrace it and when it comes to an end feel free to turn your thoughts inside out.

Raymond

 

I decided to look at a few other blogs while eating some lunch today to possibly see what some others were concentrating on today and I stumbled upon a blog that had a quote listed. “You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.” – Jon Kabat Zinn. As usual I just kept reading and then went back to doing my work and sure enough, my mind began to churn and combine my post earlier about the government and this quote.

Before we all blow up because you think I am saying to be okay with what is going on, Let me clearly state, ” DO NOT BE OKAY WITH WHAT IS GOING ON.”  I just thought about the quote and then put myself in other people’s shoes or boots for that matter. Take a minute and think about the stir this whole shutdown is causing here in the states. If you don’t know what I am talking about do me a favor and get out from under your rock and log into your Facebook account. I can safely assume you will see multiple post supporting the soldiers in this matter which I completely agree with and I myself have been clicking the “Like” button all morning.

With my mind wrapped around this entire fiasco I read this quote and it made me think about the soldiers that are walking under the hot sun wearing a heavy field pack protecting us right now. I think about them and in the midst of all this, those soldiers are exactly what this quote is talking about. “You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.” they are weathering this storm as we speak. None of the men and woman who are fighting, for not only my freedom but also the freedoms of the people who are causing these “waves” are not and will not drown in these waves, instead they will mount up and surf until these waves subside.

We have a choice to get up in the morning and the choice of what we do everyday, and the people meeting about this shutdown have the option to go get lunch or spend more time doing whatever it is they feel like doing. Our loved ones are over seas protecting our freedoms and surfing through these waves caused by our own internal wave machines with no choice but to do it. So my attempt to put somewhat of a positive light on the darkness here is just to say that these men and woman are heroes and they are showing the ability to surf the waves with pride and I have to take my hat off to them because I don’t know how long I could do that for a government that says they care for the troops but the actions are those of carelessness.

” You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf”

Raymond

I am not a political person so please refrain from writing to me and giving me all your reasons as to why this is a good thing or how I have the “facts” wrong, I am simply turning my thoughts inside out. I am only writing this right now because it is everywhere and in my face right now on TV so of course I am thinking about it. The problem for me is that this is totally like the big kid on the playground calling out, ” It’s my ball, and I’m going home so game over suckers!” I don’t specifically remember what comedian it was that said it but the line,” If we could go back to when we were 12 I clearly think we would kick our own asses.”

The Government shutdown will affect thousands of Jobs, Loans, Payments, and many other facets of a lot of people’s lives and the one that is really irritating the hell out of me is the delay or complete stoppage of Military personnel pay. Are you kidding me? How about every one of you suit wearing douche bags in congress trade in your Gucci computer bag for an M-16 and a canteen, since you wont be able to stop at a Starbucks in a cave somewhere in the middle east you may want to pack some beans and find a nice rock to grind it up with. As of now with all the complaining going on with the government about money and the NFL about money I’m sure we could pay our soldiers, If not I hope Ben Rothlisburger can send the speaker of the house on a slant route to Ramadi, Don’t worry grenades don’t hurt much. Without the men and woman who are serving you would not have the opportunity to complain about the millions you are being paid to play football and the Government would not have all the time they do to sit back and “work on a spending plan.”  It almost disgusts me to see that we can do this to some of our most important Americans.

To be honest with you, now that my blood is boiling again due to thinking about this, An AP article also states that the agency responsible for guaranteeing roughly 30 percent of home mortgages, the Federal Housing Administration, would be affected and action on government-backed loans to small businesses would be suspended. Wow, so while all these wealthy folks sitting in this gigantic room playing the largest game of Monopoly ever take their sweet time, we will make the small businesses suffer. What a Joke! Feel free to hit the comment button to the right and turn your thoughts inside out.

Raymond

Have you ever really thought about that homeless guy you walked by on your way into AMPM or the homeless woman walking down the street with a pack on heavier than anything you will ever intentionally lift. The short and quick answer is probably not. We normally just continue on with what we were doing and a lot of us will actually lift our noses at them due to the lack of cleanliness or what we think is a lack of drive, like we really know what put those people on the street.

My thoughts on this can be contradicting and cause other mixed thoughts but I think they are worth sharing. Take a minute to think about anyone you know that is truly struggling right now. Don’t act like you don’t know anyone that is in a tough spot right now with the economy the way it is we all do, and if by some crazy chance all of your friends are just peachy in these times and you honestly do not know anyone that is struggling, you need to go make some more friends and stop hiding. Anyways, that is another conversation in its own. Now think to that person you know, maybe they are behind on bills and the mortgage and they have just enough to get by as far as the everyday necessities are concerned and all it would take is one more shove to push them into homelessness.

Now think if you did not know that person and that one more shove took place and you happened to see this person after they have lost “everything” as far as the worldly term everything is concerned. Maybe you are walking into that AMPM on a hot day to get yourself a nice cold beverage and you see that person sitting out front, do you just walk on by because you do not know the story? Or do you think to yourself, ” What if that were me?” Don’t kid yourself, it could be you or me or a friend or family member. I’ll be honest, if I really put my mind to thinking about homelessness I don’t know how I would cope with it. All of the nice stuff I have now, including AC, clean clothes, food in a fridge, a couch. What would I do without all of that?

My answer to that question is I think I would gain ” Homeless Strength.” Some of the strongest people I have ever talked to in my life have been people who are either on the verge of  losing it all or have already lost it all, at least in my mind I thought of it as losing it all. I have talked to homeless people who brave the 115 heat of the summer and the 20 degree winters outside on the street and they are happier than any Mercedes driving fine dining executive you will ever meet. Why? I’m sure it is not the new Shopping cart he is pushing his stuff in or the 4 foot by 4 foot square of shade he found to hang out it. I am just making an assumption here that some you reading this are joking or laughing and saying, ” Oh it is probably the drugs he’s on” after all, that would be the stereotypical thing to say , right?

Some of these people are stronger than you and I could ever be, living day-to-day not only dealing with the homeless part but dealing with people who treat them like they are animals that should be caged and put in an area all alone to not affect anyone else around them.  Why don’t we help out from time to time and reach out to help get them out of that caged in area that they are “stuck” in. I can list reasons why most of us wont, for instance…. I have earned everything I have I do not need to share what I have with some Bum.. Or simply, why doesnt he/she got get a job like the rest of us. In case you have not noticed Boy genius most homeless people wont be given the time of day on the street why would anyone invite them into a place of business.

Again, you may completely disagree with me and be wondering why I am even going on and on about this but like I have said before, I am just airing out the things that I think about. Disagree, or get pissy all you want these are my thoughts I am not forcing you to agree and I am not telling you to go out today and adopt a homeless person. But if you want to share your thoughts with me on this, Please feel free!

Raymond

Okay, so I am a very opinionated person just like a lot of you are. But does being opinionated make you a critic? I am not talking about a food critic or movie critic or an American Idol judge. I am talking about that guy or that girl that you know that you are friends with but almost can’t stand to be around them because they always have something to say about the way you do “Everything.” I hope you are not confused because you know exactly what I am talking about. Think about the other day when that person was in your car and you turned left and they thought you should have turned right. Instead of just keeping their mouth shut and moving on they rubbed it in for the next 3 weeks. I have met more and more of these type of people and I almost enjoy them… Yes, I just said I enjoy them because if you pay attention to these people, which is exactly what they want and at the same time stay on the outside of their Critic Bubble you will experience some of the most entertaining conversations you have ever heard or been a part of.

I am the type of person that when you are full of crap and I hear you attempting to spread your crap I will call you out on it, but I have also come to notice that most of the “Critics” im right your wrong people are usually the people I am calling out, if you just sit back and let them continue to dig the hypothetical hole that the thing they call a mouth is digging eventually they begin to backfill that hole and call themselves out. As sad as that seems it is so true.

Some of the questions I ask myself when I am around some of these people is, do they know that they are saying that? Do they really think I believe that crap? Right after I asked myself those question I then begin to turn the questions my way…. Wait for it….. Wait for it…… Uh oh, Am I being a critic by standing back and criticizing this persons tendency to criticize? Did I know I was doing that?  What was I thinking?  Oddly enough the saying “Everyones A Critic” holds more water then you thought doesn’t it. If I remember correctly we are all supposed to help each other to move forward in life and sometimes we decide to stand back and look at what someone else is doing and just say well I’m glad I am not like that or, Look at that person criticizing everyone and everything, they should not do that they should instead be doing ( Insert your criticism here ). In my opinion every single one of us should look in our own mirror and take a look at ourselves before we decided to look into someone elses. If you look closely you may agree “Everyones A Critic”

This thought was not brought on by anyone or anything in particular, it’s just one of my inner thoughts I decided to turn inside out.

Raymond